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I am made of pop – a dark, obscure, subversive and inspirational underground pop, but pop!!

 

[Jean-Michel Basquiat – Works from the Mugrabi Collection]

Centro Cultural Banco do Brasil, Rio de Janeiro (2018)

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Há 18 anos atrás uma amiga me levou em um show de um cara que eu não conhecia muito além do nome e de alguns hits…eu não tava preparada para o quanto essa noite, esse show, esse cara iria influenciar minha vida. Quando Morrissey entrou no palco do Opinião (Poa/RS) em fevereiro de 2000, imagino que minha cara deva ter ficado semelhante à da cena de Christiane F., quando ela assiste ao show do Bowie. Devo ter ficado catatônica o show inteiro…lembro da sensação hipnótica e de sair do show com algo diferente. Daquele dia em diante, degustei cada música dos Smiths e Morrissey, achando uma voz para traduzir meus sentimentos…em cada letra, um reconhecimento. A ajuda necessária para sobreviver que só encontramos na arte. Morrissey cantou cada dor que a existência me apresentou e me convenceu rapidinho a parar de comer carne. 18 anos vegetariana…muita gente fica incrédula com este tempo, mas para mim fez todo sentido no momento em que conheci Morrissey e nunca foi difícil.18 anos (e alguns meses), sempre contando com ele nos momentos mais sombrios, nas horas de levantar a cabeça  com o orgulho de assumir minhas escolhas sem me importar com julgamentos alheios, e até dançando sem vergonha…Morrissey me apresentou uma filosofia de vida que me serviu perfeitamente.

Passados estes 18 anos, o sentimento ao revê-lo não tem como ser descrito de outra forma se não o clichê de gratidão. Fiquei muito feliz com o lindo show, com os 90 minutos mágicos, que lavam a alma e reafirmam o myself. Além do momento mágico por si só, uma produção de show impecável, num lugar com acústica e ambientação peculiar para os padrões BR (Fundição Progresso, Rio/RJ) e um setlist que muito me agradou, pois era mais para “next steps” do que para “essentials”. Foi uma experiência necessária para aliviar este ano, tão difícil de sobreviver…Moz nos indicando para resistirmos, nos apoiando nos amigos (se tivermos algum, obviamente). Gratidão eterna para com quem também teve sua alma rejeitada por satan.

 

[Latin America Tour] Morrissey (2018)

(one more time, thank you brainpickings for the great tip!)

“You can be lonely anywhere, but there is a particular flavour to the loneliness that comes from living in a city, surrounded by millions of people.”

[The Lonely City] Olivia Laing (2016)

“There’s just this for consolation: an hour here or there when our lives seem, against all odds and expectations, to burst open and give us everything we’ve ever imagined, though everyone but children (and perhaps even they) know these hours will inevitably be followed by others, far darker and more difficult.” (p. 225)

[The Hours] Michael Cunningham (1998)

– a promessa da felicidade está numa lembrança do passado –

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[lost paradise] Luceni Hellebrandt (MVD fev 2014)

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[domingo] Luceni Hellebrandt (2017)

Bellow there is some quotes from Eric G. Wilson’s book “Agains Happiness: in praise of melancholy” (2008 – Sarah Crichton Books / 1st paperback edition in 2009):

“That’d finally it; happy types ultimately don’t live their own liver at all. They follow some prefabricated script, some ton-step plan for bliss or some stairway to heaven.” (p. 28)

“Once we accept these seasons of mental water as inevitable parts of our life – indeed, once we affirm them as essential elements of existence – then the paradox comes truly alive. We actually feel, in the midst of our sorrow, something akin to joy. […] We die into life.” (p. 37)

“[…] the sense that chaos is the original power of the universe, an indifferent reservoir out of which pairs of opposites arise.” (p. 49)

“Ever since the fifth century B.C., people had feared the most sinister of the four humors: melancholia, or black bile. In classical Greece, physicians like Hippocrates believes that the body was composed of four humors. These were cholera, phlegm, blood, and, of course, melancholia. According to the ancient theory, these humors dictated dispositions. A chronically irascible man suffered from much cholera. A tranquil individual possessed an overload of phlegm. A vigorous soul enjoyed a good quantity of blood. And a morose person was beset by a predominance of black bile.

This melancholy person was open to the most pernicious evils. He could turn misanthropic, fearful, despondent, nervous, or mad.” (p. 70)

“[…] the durable melancholia reveals the secret of joy while ecstasy unveils the core of gloom. Sensing this interdependence, we feel ready to move this way or that, light on our feet, untroubled by a desire to grasp that side or this. We can play in the middle.” (p. 84)

“[…]’chase away the demons, and they will take the angels with them.’” (p. 99)

“Indeed, you can experience beauty only when you have a melancholy foreboding that all things in this world will die. The transience of an object makes it beautiful, and its transience is manifested in its fault lines, its expressions of decrepitude. To go in fear of death is to forgo beauty for prettiness, that flaccid rebellion against corrosion. To walk with death in your head is to open the heart to peerless flashes of fire.” (p. 115)

“[…] Without melancholia, the earth would likely freeze into a fixed state, as predictable as metal. Only with the help of constant sorrow can this dying world be changes, enlivened, pushed to the new.” (p. 145)

Against Happiness